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Last night I finished reading Blood Work again by Michael Connelly.  It was really good and much better than the movie.  In the book the killer is different than in the movie.  Since they can go into more detail in the book, it makes the story more complete.

Now I’m reading Angels Fight.  Harry Bosch is the Det and I really like him.  If I hadn’t mentioned it before, I’m re-reading Michael Connelly’s books in order that they were released because he sometimes mentions things that happened in a previous book.

Since I’ve cancelled my Sirius subscription after they gave me some free months, I’ve started going to Live365.com again.  Don’t ask me why but I just love Celtic/Irish music, especially on Winter mornings.  But this last week been listening to it longer than just in the mornings.

One day I was laughing all day because of the songs they were playing, it really had me in a good mood.  The 2 stations I listen to most are Highlander radio and Celtic-Rock radio.  If you like listening to finding new music or music from around the world, you should check out live365.com, and not I don’t make any money be sending people there lol

I had my bankruptcy hearing today, went as expected.  I’m still screwed but it will clear some things off my credit history in time I guess.

My friend that took me there stopped so I could buy some beer.  The store didn’t have my usually brand of Rolling Rock so  I bought 12 Budweisers, which is the brand I use to drink until they pissed me off by selling to InBev, which months after I switch to Rolling Rock I found out it is owned by AB which InBev bought so either way they are still getting my money.

Oh well crap happens lol  Like I don’t know that already.  Yes I know it is before 5pm but I’m drinking already and it feels good.

I know it is only 9 days in but so far things are going good.

I do have my bankruptcy hearing on Tuesday so that will be one more thing out of the way.  I moved my office upstairs which I really like because it is better than being on the couch all day working.  It is more convenient since my son is living downstairs and sleeps days since he works nights. 

I started reading again Blood Work by Michael Connelly.  They made it into a movie staring Clint Eastwood and Jeff Daniels and even though the book is much better I can’t help “hear” Clint and Jeff’s voices while I’m reading LOL

I’m a bit sore yesterday and today, my shower backed up the other day and I worked on it all day trying to get it unclogged.

Can’t believe in March will be a year already since my husband died.  Time went be fast through it didn’t feel like it a few months ago.  But now that the “fog” is starting to finally lift I realize how much time has gone by.

Sure this new year is better than this past year. 

I had a couple of glasses of Seagram’s 7 & Cherry Dr. Pepper, played a few games on pogo.com.  Then had some leftovers and a piece of spice cake I made and put in one of my favorite movies, Same Time, Next Year with Alan Alda and Elene Bernstein, I might have spelled her name wrong.

This is the exciting life I lead.  Not that my husband and I did anything special on New Year’s Eve or anytime really but at least I wasn’t alone.  Well that isn’t true either but someone was here.

It was a tough week but today I’m actually doing pretty good.  It is snowing out and I’ve got Christmas music going.

Last night when Justin, my son got home from work, he works until Midnight,  we talked for a few minutes.  Told him I’m sorry things aren’t better, he said “Mom the important thing is that we have a place to live, the gifts don’t really matter.”    A moment of maturity that surprised me because he is only 23 yrs. old but it did make me happy that he said and realized that.   And then he started to put some soda in the fridge, something he can’t seem to remember to do, I said “Ok, what did you do to my son?”  He started laughing and so did I.  Before he went to bed he said to wake him up around 5 pm so we can have dinner together even though he usually sleeps until 10pm on nights when he works.

Last night on Netflix I watch a couple of documentaries on Musicals.  It seemed to lift my spirits some.  So today after I little bit of work I watched Hair and then The Rocky Horror Picture Show.  Those have always been some of my favorites.  Rocky Horror and a few beers helped me relaxed some.

Might look to see what other musicals I have on DVD to watch.  I just need to try and forget about all that seems to be going wrong or still hasn’t improved since my husband died.  This is the only thing I can think of doing that usually lifts my mood.

Some of my musicals are still on VHS and some I have on DVD but I still have a VCR in my bedroom, which is where I watch Hair and Rocky Horror I have on DVD.  Decided to put in Saturday Night Fever, which my son bought me on DVD a few years ago, he also bought me Footloose.  Sometimes I wonder if anyone is reading this blog but I guess it doesn’t really matter because I least I have a place to put all my thoughts, feelings, etc and get it out of my head…but I sure hope someone is reading this.

It is finally snowing here today.  Not sure how much we will get but I love how things look when it snows. 

I’ve been listening to my Celtic/Irish CD’s, they go so well when it is when it is snowing out….well at least to me it does.

My mood is still abit down but eventually it will go back up but right now I don’t really care about anything.  I wish I could just get a break from all this stuff going on but I can’t so I’m trying to deal with things the best I can.

The end of the century
I said my goodbyes
For what it’s worth
I always aimed to please
But I nearly died

For what it’s worth
Come on lay with me
‘Cause I’m on fire
For what it’s worth
I tear the sun in three
To light up your eyes

For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth

Broke up the family
Everybody cried
For what it’s worth
I have a slow disease
That sucked me dry
For what it’s worth
Come on walk with me
Into the rising tide
For what it’s worth
Filled a cavity
Your god shaped hole tonight

For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth
For what it’s worth

No one cares when you’re
out on the street
Picking up the pieces
to make ends meet
No one cares when
you’re down in the gutter
Got no friends, got no lover

No one cares when you’re
out on the street
Picking up the pieces
to make ends meet
No one cares when
you’re down in the gutter
Got no friends, got no lover

For what it’s worth
Got no lover
For what it’s worth
Got no lover
For what it’s worth
Got no lover
For what it’s worth
Got no lover
For what it’s worth
Got no lover
For what it’s worth
Got no lover
For what it’s worth
Got no lover

Got no friends got no lover

Well I’ve got my new office set up now, just waiting on a usb wireless adapter for my PC  so for the mean time I’m still working from my laptop.  I’m really looking forward to working in my office, it is set up nice. 

I changed some of the pictures in 2 of the frames my husband had on his desk, which I am now using cause it was the easier of the 2 to move.  But it seemed a bit strange to have pictures of me in my office so I put one I had of my Mom, older sister and me that was taken in 2006 when we drove to California for the holidays.  The other picture was from the same time, it is a group shot of my Mom, older sister, her boyfriend, her 3 kids and 2 grandkids and my oldest son and my niece’s husband.

Seems like I start to make some headway and then something else comes along.  I wish I had some beer just so that I can relax.  My body is strange sometimes with alcohol, if I’m stressed or upset, I don’t drink cause it won’t affect me so it seems like a waste.  But I would still like to have some    

Want to know how I’m feeling today?  This song, For What It’s Worth, is  how I’m feeling, it is by Placebo.  I will post the lyrics separately.

College football will be starting soon, hope I make it through them cause last year before “bowl week” ended, which was more like 2 or 3 weeks of bowl games, I was tried of football – thought that wouldn’t happen